Just being me...I guess

Wed, 24 Aug 2005 00:31:59 GMT

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Mon, 08 Aug 2005 18:20:05 GMT

Can I just say I LOVE YOU ALL? lol *HUGS FOR ALL*....that is all.

eh

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 18:40:37 GMT

Just got from work a few minutes ago. It was decent and funny at the same time? @_@ Met a girl named Alexis, she's pretty schway. gahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...I'm hungry. Gotta get ready for Adam's party, it should be fun ^_^. I'll be back around 8:30, so yeah? lol I'm so fuggin' tired man!

grrr....

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 21:49:25 GMT

I would like to say HAPPY BIRTHDAY to my sister. She's 17, so yah her! ^_^ In other news, I'm feeling very annoyed right now, just got back home from driving, which isn't the best, but my mom always make me feel like crap but whatever. I'm tired of living in this house...

this is werid

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 21:24:33 GMT

Lately, I've had a werid mixture of feelings during the most random times. It's just fuggin' annoying but a certain person always makes me feel better and I thank him for that. I don't really know what I'm feeling so I guess this song sums it up. It's called Niji(rainbow) by L'arc~en~ciel.

Niji

Time plays, the feelings overflow
I began to walk,
to a voice so faint and wispy, to your eyes,
the endless future goes on.

The truth is, the heart is a very fragile thing
we've all got cracks.
Wet by a sudden downpour,
you've come to a standstill again but,
because you believe me

I'll get closer to the sky, higher than anyone
gathering bits of glimmer, I want the light
even if I burn myself out, it doesn't matter
all is with truth

"The boy saw a twisted hatred in the shadows of others"
I don't want to see anything of such a world.
Nothing! Nothing! Nothing!

It takes one hundred loves,
to balance one scratch
on the scales of memory...
But the heart is like a rock on the shore
swallowed by the waves, love will take shape
through the many scratches.

Yet still I think of you
even as the seasons go by ...
I close my eyes, and like I'd seen it do many times before
yet another rain let up.

Oh sad person. Unfulfilled wish.
Why is it love is born from this heart?
On the sunken earth flowers blooming all over
tremble in the downpour

Time plays love. the feelings overflow
I began to walk,
to a voice so faint and wispy, to your eyes,
I'll devote an endless future.

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 16:58:12 GMT

Just got back from work a few minutes ago. It was alright, except for the fact that my co-worker pat kept doing stuff for me when I could DAMn well figure it out myself. @_@ It was annoying me but she's a nice person. I get paid tomorrow so that kicks ass ^_^. I have to talk to my manger about scheduling me, since I have to go to school to take pics for the yearbook next week....that should be magical! *sarcasim* Yesterday I went to the bemani-thon at Kahunaville. I met one of my lj friends, ayame1987, she seemed really nice, which was cool. Basically, it was all about the ddr competition and playing video games. It was relaxing but kinda boring at the same time. I played some tetris based games and the like. Then I was talking to this kid. Now, it was okay for a while until he kept asking me werid questions like "what's your sign, your hobbies", etc. Then he asked me if I wanted to walk around the arcade with him @_@ I said "ok sure" and proceeded to promenade around. He would just keep talking and I just responded a few "yes" and "sure" here and there. He was actually interesting until he asked me what type of guys I go for @_@ I was like "I don't really have a type".....At that point it was getting awkward, so I hung out with Adam. My other friend Chris B was on a team with adam, so I took pics of them. I have volunteering in at 1:30, so I gotta go get ready. Later!

what the freak?

Sat, 30 Jul 2005 00:13:32 GMT

Got back from training for work and it was pretty simple. The instructer showed us three movies, all boring as hell. Then we learned the basics of being a cashier, nothing too exciting @_@. I got my schedule today from school, all classes were good except history @_@ They have the FUCKIN' audacity to give me geography...a class I didn't even sign up for! Tell me how the funk I don't get into AP Euro and everybody I've talked to has? I was extrememly dumbfounded and pissed off beyond belief, like you wouldn't believe. I imed one of my classmates, Jill to see if she got in..and she fuggin' did! So basically, I wrote whoever was in charge and email stating why I didn't get into and see if I could get in. I mean, I should have gotten in, if the fuckin' Ap american history students got in(sophmores that are going to be juniors) why the hell aren't I? If you can't tell, I'm was really looking forward to Ap Euro because of one reason: I fuckin' enjoy Euro history and I do pretty damn well in it, if I say so myself.I'm clearly qualified to be in the damn class...Archmere will feel my wrath! I'm going to call them the first change I get! grrrr, we'll I'll just leave it in God's hands and the like! I'm going to read now, so go do something!

geh

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 00:32:01 GMT

Yeah, I'm going to get the remaining 4 books done by the 2nd week of August! Anybody who thinks otherwise doesn't know the abilities I possess ^_^ However, I still need to order those AP Euro History books...maybe from Amazon.com? -shrugs- I'm going to go read now and the like. I have volunteering tommorow and Happy Harry's job training from 3:45-7:00, but I get paid for it. When I do earn enough money, I'm buying L'arc~en~ciel new cd "Awake"....that's a promise!

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 19:51:05 GMT

*stands up* I got the fuggin' job! *dances and spins* I work at Happy Harry's starting Saturday at their Pharmacy! The plus side is I get paid more than my sister $6.45, only 50 cents more @_@. Yeah, now I actually have something to do other than staying home, hahahaha! *HUGGLES FOR ALL* And now to eat some pasta...yeah I feel SOOOOOOOOOOOO good right now!

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 00:21:20 GMT

yeah, well I think I may get a job @_@ Some guy from Happy Harry's called me and asked me if I could come in to see him. Alas, I couldn't stand because I had volunteering from the hospital from 1:30-5:30, so that's a no go. So it's going to be tommorow(wish me luck ^_^). Now, I'm enjoying a strawberry milkshake because I can? yeah, so going to find something to do. Way random, but I can't help but worry about people I don't know. I'm worried about one of my lj friends the_shadow_king, can't really help it.. I'm werid, I've said it!

hmm?

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 18:26:22 GMT

Need to get out of my house because people are pissing me off. However, my pissed state is my fault as well, due to me not controlling my emotions enough @_@ I want to see people but at the same time don't want to? ~shrugs~ The only things I'm looking forward to are Bemanithon towards the end of July, "malling it" with friends after reading is complete, and Adam's party in August. Summer is disappointing but it does give me time to study my Japanese book I suppose

Fri, 22 Jul 2005 22:36:37 GMT

I finished the book IN our TIme, so yeah that's one down and five more to go @_@ It's not like I have anything interesting to do or people to see. Damnit, I still need to finish the fifth harry potter book. I'm tired like woah!

Causes stain, stay away!

Mon, 18 Jul 2005 04:33:00 GMT

Summer is overated and hasn't been much fun for me @_@ Right now the only thing I'm focusing on is my summer reading! Go me, so fuggin' dedicated! *sarcasim* I'm bored so I'm going to read or something ^_^ Can't get Stay Away from L'arc~en~ciel out of my head...which isn't a bad thing ^_^ Yukihiro, Ken, Tetsu, and Hyde...great guys ^_^

bout Virginia...^_^

Tue, 12 Jul 2005 20:44:44 GMT

As I've stated, I arrived back from Virginia on Sunday. My parents dubbed it as a vacation...all I saw it was to get the hell out of Delaware, the internet, etc which was nice. Although I could write a huge entry on what I did while in Virginia, bulleting would be SO MUCH EASIER! Now...Let's get started, READY, STEADY, GO:

- timeshares kick ass

-Virginia has WAY too many bugs *shudders*

- some people don't have manners

-Apparently, you can swim in the Jamestown river and not DIE!

- Don't play DDR in a short skirt....while your family/family friends are watching you @_@

-A place near the college of william and mary(or maybe it was the william/mary college) has lots other states' flags

-Go Karts kick ass!

-pull out sofa beds..ownz everyone!

-Chinese food in Virginia is less greasy @_@

-Virginia has more trees than an average backyard

- A jacuzzi bathtub is so hot...I'm not kidding, tried warming that bitch down with cold water and it was STiLL HOt~

-stores that double as resturants and sell old school candy is great

-you can't get tranquility and beautiful scenery in Delaware

-got owned in the card game UNO twice..that sister of mine has skills!

-leftover chinese food left in the car for over two hours shouldn't be eaten(ate it when I got back to DE, I'm so bad!)

- no Gackt makes me very dull

-colonial williamsburg...tis awesome

-siblings messing with my hair while sleeping...is bad

-soft cookies right out of the oven..is godly times ten

all in all Virginia was a great time had by all but I don't wanna go back @_@ My dad says we'll go to North Carolina next which should be interesting. I'm going to read or play some video games or something else but I should REALLY READ...next month is school. Oh lord...

Mon, 11 Jul 2005 02:50:43 GMT

Just got back from Virginia a couple of hours ago..will update later @_@

damnit

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 20:43:56 GMT

Yeah, this day has been boring and I'm not very happy right now.. oh well I'll get over it. Anyway, might be going to Virgina tommorow for two days just to get away from Delaware. I haven't seen any of my friends since the end of exams, and to tell the truth I sorta miss hanging out with them @_@ I still need to get my ass in gear and read my god-forsaken summer books..grrr I wanna talk to people but no one's online...I need a job so I get out of my house but I still don't think people are going to hire me. My older brother's making $8.50 an hour working at MBNA and my sister is working at happy Harry's. I can't do anything right.... On another note, I'm loving New World by L'arc~en~ciel and Gackt is still an amazing singer, that he is. I do enjoy time to myself but this is utterly insane

Something that only I can do...eh

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 22:30:22 GMT

Just got back from Borders Books and Music. Read some manga, listened to Foo Figheters song "Best of You"....it gets me really hyper heh. Afterwards, bought some of my yougner brother's summer reading books and looked at some anime dvds. Tried hunting down L'arc~en~ciel cds Smile, but I have to order it online. Yeah, I'm becoming a lazy bum by not finishing my first summer reading book. Not only is that bad, but I have five more books to go, plus need to write two five-paragraph essays. @_@ I'm no slacker, and am very capable of finishing all those books before the end of August. Need to find something to do, otherwise I get fidgety ^_^ Oh yeah, it's July 4th in Japan, so I'd like to wish happy b-day to Gackt,(the guy on my icon) one of my favorite Japanese music artist! Hope he has a great one.

On a mission...

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 19:00:41 GMT

People, I'm on a quest to find two L'arc~en~ciel albums "smile" and the newest one "Awake". I know Smile has been out for a year now I suppose and it's in stores, so gonna cope that soon! Awake just came out a few days ago but need to but it online!!! SO excited!

well why the hell not!

Thu, 30 Jun 2005 06:25:25 GMT

001. What is your name? Bola
002. Spell your name backwards. albo
003. Date of birth: Dec 22,1986
004. Male or female? female
005. Astrological sign: capricorn
006. Nicknames: Bo, Rin(someone needs to call me this)
007. Occupation? student until a job arises
008. Height: 5'3
009. Build: short, thin~HOTT just kidding
010. Hair color: Black, but looks brown in the sun @_@
011. Eye color: brown
012. Where were you born? Newark DE
013. Where do you reside now? look above
014. Age: 18, ah the power
015. Screen names: Poeticmistress21, sacredchic2286
016. E-mail addy: poeticmistress21@aol.com
017. What does your screen name stand for? I like writing poetry, and mistress is a fun word so eh
018. What is your DJ/LJ name? Rin
019. What does your diary name stand for? "Tsuki no Uta" is a song by a jrock artist named Gackt and means Moon Ballad~love this song!
020. Pets: don't have any...siblings are enoff
021. Number of candles you blew out on your last birthday cake? I didn't buy a cake heh
022. Piercings? one in each ear
023. Tattoos? none son
024. Shoe size: 8 and a half
025. Righty or lefty? righty cause we do it better
026. Wearing: black Inuyasha shirt, pink long pants, and white bandana
027. Hearing: Futurama
028. Feeling: thinking about individuals/moments
029. Eating/drinking: pasta

~Friends Stuff~

Which one of your friends is the....
030. Craziest? Chris B aka ritsuo
031. Loudest? katherine
032. Nicest? maria
033. Bitchiest? heh
034. Life of the party? me...I have my moments
035. Jock? haha
036. Prep? sam wears the clothes
037. Rebel? most def me
038. Cutest? ...
039. Best friend of the same sex? Maria/Sam
040. Best friend of the opposite sex?Chris B
041. Most popular? ...
042. Rudest? everyone's decent
043. Most shy? Chris D
044. Dumbest? in terms of actions...chris B, but then no one
045. Smartest? between the girls, sam, maria, and I
046. Weirdest? def me..haha
047. Has the best hair? maria
048. Best personality? Sam
049. Most talented? Ryan
050. Most ghetto? ...don't wanna talk about it
051. Most spoiled? ....maria
052. Drama queen? ...haha, no one THANK GOD
053. Pain in the ass? no one
054. Funniest? Sam and CHRIS B
055. Best advice giver? Chris B
056. Druggie? we're good kids
057. Most likely to join a cult? ....Alexis
058. Have you lost touch with a good friend recently? haven't know someone enough to actually call them a good friend..
059. Person you've been friends with the longest? seana since 2nd grade but we don't talk anymore
060. How many friends do you have on your buddy list? enough@_@

~Guys/Love/Kissing/And Other Stuff~

061. Have you ever been in love? nope
062. How many people have you told: none
063. How many people have you been in love with? NONE JESUS
064. How many people have you kissed? None, eh
065. Have you ever kissed someone of the same sex? HELL NO
066. How many people have you dated? don't wanna
067. What do you look for in a girl/guy? If they can trust me and tolerate me it's all good ^_^
068. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex? personality damnit
069. What type of girl/guy do you usually go for? someone with a sense of humor..and intelligence wouldn't hurt
070. Do you have a gf/bf? no, and talking to someone you talk to on the internet but have never met/seen isn't a relationship
071. If so where did you meet them? haven't
072. What do you like most about your gf/bf? don't have one fooL!
073. Do you have a crush right now?...honestly I don't know
074. If so who is it? for the love of Zeus...*smites*
075. Do you believe in love at first sight? haha no
076. Do you remember your first love? never had one...it's too bothersome
077. Who is the first person you kissed? .....
078. Do you believe in fate? No, I do what I please
079. Do you believe in soul mates? no such thing
080. If so do you believe you'll ever find yours? someday, but I'll focus on my life for now

there was alot more to this survey but I cut it because I can! Going to dl some L'arc~en~ciel songs now...oh man

Wed, 29 Jun 2005 05:32:10 GMT

ummm...yeah every post I read people are being emo and it's starting to annoy me..oh well. And I really want to see moonchild with the talented Gackt ^_^...and yeah Hyde from L'arc~en~ciel(also a jrock group) is in it!!!!! They are the hottest asian men I have ever seen in my life! If you don't like this exclamation...I don't care ^_^ Gosh, I wanna see it SO BADLY...grrr and I want L'arc~en~ciel new cd Awake! Life is eh...

heh, this week was do-able?

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 19:04:50 GMT

yeah, I haven't been updating lately because I've been busy and all so I'll just give you a re-cap of what I see fit d'accord?

Mon:
I started my volunteering process and I was kind of nervous considering the fact...I got fuggin' lost in the damn hospital. I get to volunteer for about for hours, which isn't bad at all...but to get paid would be glorious beyond belief! My job is called patient escort which is obviously going on every floor possible and picking up patients....in wheelchairs! @_@ After Titi and I got directions to our destinations, I took the east elevator all the way to the ground floor. I arrived to the patient escort headquaters and scuttled inside. I was greeted by a jolly man, who told me to take a seat and wait a few minutes. Well sir a few minutes turned into forty-five frickin' minutes of sitting on my ass waiting for a person to show me the ropes. But my ass-sitting wasn't in vain as the individuals around me started joking around like little children. Another five minutes had gone by, when finally some lady called my name and introduced me to my "mentor" if you will. My mentor was named Jacob, a guy decked out in blue scrubs. I responded with a hello and we walked to the elevators. As we reached the elevators doors, he stated "if you can try to avoid the ground elevators because their so shitty!" I gave him a chuckle and thought "this guy kicks ass!" So he started explaining that each section of the hospital had a pod; A, B, C, & D. Then he kept yammering and I started to get confused, but just listened the best I could. After only getting stretcher calls for fifteen minutes(I'm not allowed to push people on stretchers), Jacob called for the next patch of assignments via phone. Lo and behold, He gave me a big smile and exclaimed, "we have some discharges" which means I get to push people in wheelchairs! I retorted "jesus christ it's about time" and gave Jacob a sly look. He started cracking up and said he thought I was funny. After getting patients from all floors of the hostipal, and dragging them to the main lobby....I had to go to the maternity ward. ^_^ I saw SO many cute babies, but the downside was that I couldn't take the mother and her child to the main lobby...no..I had to take them to the FUggin' maternity lobby! The maternity lobby sucks, because not only is it longer than the main lobby, it has fuggin' more corners to turn @_@. I could handle it but since I hadn't eaten breakfast, a headache was developing and I was HUNGRY like a mother trucker! Then frickin' Jacob tells me to go faster and I'm like "what the fuck did you just say?" I have a fuggin' mother and her newborn baby in a wheelchair and you want me to go faster? Oh I'm sorry jacob, suppose if I go even slower I'll crash the wheelchair and braindamage the baby...the idiot. So after 3 hours of wheelchairing, I got my lunch, which was free but So crappy! Jacob is still awesome though!

Friday:
Oh, jesus christ I had to do 4C, which was the shittest job I took! I had to feed patients, which could clearly feed themselves, pick up their soiled bedsheets,that smelled like urine and stock items. When I first got there I had to report to a lady named Pam...big mistake. This fuckin' lady didn't even try to give me assignments..figures. A lady named Heather was uber nice to me, stating that they always ask for volunteers but the one day I arrive no one needs help. So I basically sat on my ass for 2 hours or so ocassionally being called for stupid things, like throwing crap away and such @_@ Then Heather said I could go on my lunch break and met Titi, who had 3D, which is dealing with patients after surgery. At least she had entertaining people to talk to. I had fuggin' middle-aged women asking me what school I attend, which I responded Archmere Academy, and them retorting "you must be so smart, that school's so good". All and all, I hate this 4C crap..there's no action damnit.

Not much of a re-cap but I don't care..and now to venture to the mall for shopping because there is a 50-70% off sale and I need some shoes/shirts...and maybe then off to hot topic ^_^ later!

bored

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 22:23:13 GMT

You are a Samurai.
You are full of honour and value respect. You
are not really the stereotypical hero, but you
do fight for good. Just in your own way. For
you, it is most certainly okay to kill an evil
person, if it is for justice and peace. You
also don't belive in mourning all the time and
think that once you've hit a bad stage in life
you just have to get up again. It's pointless
to concentrate on emotional pain and better to
just get on with everything. You also are a
down to earth type of person and think before
you act. Impulsive people may annoy you
somewhat.

Main weapon: Sword
Quote: "Always do the right thing.
This will gratify some people and astonish the
rest" -Mark Twain
Facial expression: Small smile

What Type of Killer Are You? [cool pictures]
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Wed, 22 Jun 2005 18:22:59 GMT

there's a disease on my arm...not allowed to scratch it grrrr! Stupid Pdd skin test. Lunch times *glomps pasta and meatballs*

haha...I need to get started!

Sun, 19 Jun 2005 18:36:16 GMT

I just checked my school email and I just got my AP Euro History assignment. I have to read two books, which isn't too bad but then I have to write to five-paragraph essays. What the fuck? Now because of these two books, I have six books to read this summer. However, as I look at it, the two books for history that I have to read I won't be tested on!!! ^_^ So basically, I have to get started soon or I'm screwed. The only advantage I see starting my summer reading early is that I actually have time to develop some ideas for the essays that I'll be writng. So, I'm going to start reading one of my books now...ja ne @_@

Fri, 17 Jun 2005 22:07:44 GMT

Went to the volunteer meeting today, which lasted four freakin' hours! Dear god, the women who were in charge are just uber boring. I seriously wanted to shoot myself, but a girl near me kept me sane, so that was cool. We had a break, ate some snacks and drank soda(which sucked by the way). Met some pretty fun individuals, watched videos, etc. I know I'm skimming on alot of details, but I'm tired forgive me @_@. On another note, I just got my report card today, and all my grades were awesome but I got an 84 on my Chemistry exam.......FUCKIN' Incredible! I was like "how the hell did that happen?" I only studied for five hours or less...but that sure as hell can't be luck can it?
Well, I'm going to go change and relax for a bit! ja ne!